I am late on my blog, I know- But i did come baring a gift. A little Autumn Romance for those who need to celebrate it, share it or just remind themselves that it is there. (if it looks familiar its because It was my contribution to a Mega Kit on SZ but now since I am no longer there, you all can enjoy it) And to be honest- I needed this one to come out.
I am reminded of Creedance Clearwater Revivals ever famous song- he asks that question- "I want to know- Have you ever seen the rain? Coming down on a sunny day." I have, today is no exception. The sun is bright out, its unusually warm today and a perfect day to enjoy life- But this monsoon cloud over my head just wont quit. To be honest- It can go away forever and I would on cloud nine itself. As many know, my mother passed away just 2 months ago- leaving a larger load than I had ever expected on myself- And just yesterday while chatting with Colie on my CT I received a phone call that my last remaining grandmother had passed. With all other things going on right now in my real life this puts a sweet shiny cherry on top of this 3 tier cake that has been building. I will face all week the family that didn't bother calling with condolences or to check on the family here (my mother didn't have a funeral) And left to explain over and over again to them when the ones from out of state that were never informed to begin with where my mom is. And this whole line of them like to call me my moms name because of how much I look like her, and I don't think I am ready for it. If I don't face it, I will regret it- If I do, I know what I will face and the pain might be enough to break me. Its too soon for me, but I guess we all have to face this at some point right?
And I know you are thinking- O poor pity you- I don't want any sympathy or anyone to feel sorry for me. I just needed to get this off my chest. Far too often you see in this digi world people hiding behind their sorrows, pretending everything is perfect in their lives. That's fine for them, but I can't do it. However easy it may be to do- It just adds to the build up mess.
So now that I have gotten a little more personal with the world- LOL- Maybe more so than needed. I am off to remind myself of what helps keep me strong. My love, and the love that surrounds me. Its only that love that truly keeps me going and striving each day to do and feel better. So can I suggest to you to do the same? Trust me, when you remember the love that brought you to where you are now in your life- Your eyes open up to see past the rain- and realize the sun shining on the other side. My love spread to you- Autumn Romance-
special thanks to Automic Cupcake.
Thank you all for your comments on my freebies- As the comment love I get (see there is it again LOL) brings me back with more. Happy scrapping all!
I have also update my Commercial TOU for all that purchased anything prior- You will reciew new TOU soon- Credit is no longer required, nor are there as many restrictions. To much going on when i made that TOU. LOL- It will come soon.